; suicidal dreams

the intensity of my outburst, my extreme protectiveness i was previously unaware of over her worries and leaves me with more than a little unease.

i must not let anyone get too close again, it will only cause myself harm and pain.

whatever i hold dear to my heart, given time, i know i will eventually lose. and the bitter resultant of loss tends to hit me down very strongly.


i wasn't asking for the world.

& i know i would take bullets for you, but would you for me?