; a conversation with kits

-lousyboy- : why sigh...
jovina.* : i feel terrible
-lousyboy- : whats wrong gal
jovina.* : i thought i didnt care about this guy.
jovina.* : i broke up with him.
jovina.* : i feel guilty and i want to make it up
jovina.* : but he already has no feelings left.
-lousyboy- : ahhhh
-lousyboy- : how you know he has no feelings left :(
jovina.* : lol.
jovina.* : he said no.
-lousyboy- : maybe stick around
-lousyboy- : show him you care and all ><
jovina.* : he told me to stop contacting him.
jovina.* : so i will respect him.
-lousyboy- : omg
-lousyboy- : thats harsh x.X
jovina.* : yes.
-lousyboy- : *hug
-lousyboy- : man he ask you to not contact him..isnt there another way around?
jovina.* : sigh.
jovina.* : i told him the same thing before.
jovina.* : i didnt realise it was so hurting.
-lousyboy- : maybe give him some time to cool it
-lousyboy- : maybe hes still angry or sad and stuffz
jovina.* : sigh.
jovina.* : he tagged at his ex gf's blog.
jovina.* : i guess he's gone back to her?
jovina.* : i'm glad but at the same time..
-lousyboy- : aye, it might or might not happen
-lousyboy- : i mean it takes 2 hand to clap
-lousyboy- : as much as it hurts , maybe hes not meant to be
-lousyboy- : maybe theres someone else out there thats just right for you
-lousyboy- : maybe hes the one
-lousyboy- : who knows
jovina.* : his ex loves him very much.
jovina.* : tt was one reason why i refused to accept him.
jovina.* : cos i have a conscience.. and i dont want someone else to hurt.
jovina.* : but in the end.
jovina.* : guess who's the one hurting? ):
-lousyboy- : at times
jovina.* : am i silly kits.
-lousyboy- : being kind
-lousyboy- : is kinda sad
-lousyboy- : i wont say you are
-lousyboy- : but you have to know, love is actually kinda selfish thingy
-lousyboy- : its just you
* jovina.* no more walking round with my head down. has changed his/her name to jovina.* being kind to another is simply being cruel to yourself.
-lousyboy- : even if people think you're silly
-lousyboy-: but thats just one of your qualities that somebody out there
-lousyboy- : will learn to appreciate and like you for it
jovina.* : really.
jovina.* : sigh..
jovina.* : sometimes i wonder why im going through all this.
jovina.* : like last night.. i went clubbing,
jovina.* : got picked up numerous times.
jovina.* : my friend's friends too were all like wanting numbers and stuff.
jovina.* : i don't think im tt terrible.
jovina.* : but why am i going through this time and again.
-lousyboy- : its not that you're terrible
-lousyboy- : its well maybe
-lousyboy- : part and parcel of your life
-lousyboy- : we learn from mistakes
-lousyboy- : we learn from breakups
-lousyboy- : we grow from them jov
jovina.* : one after another..
jovina.* : how many more blows can i take?
-lousyboy- : all i can say , is only time will tell jov, endure it
-lousyboy- : your prince charming, soul mate whatever you call it
-lousyboy- : might be the next one
jovina.* : perhaps..
-lousyboy- : hold on , hang tight jov
-lousyboy- : he'll arrive one day
jovina.* : its not jus about love kitty..
jovina.* : i don't know why we can't even be friends.
jovina.* : the ex bf also, and another friend i really treasure too.
-lousyboy- : maybe they arent gracious enough, maybe they arent generous, who knows im not faulting them
-lousyboy- : but some people, guys mainly feel that
-lousyboy- : if they break up with a girl
-lousyboy- : its awkward to be friends with them again
-lousyboy- : its just not right
-lousyboy- : some of them find it cool, its not just about love between a male and female, theres more to it
-lousyboy- : maybe you were unlucky to find 2 ex bfs that were the former spieces
-lousyboy- : we never know
jovina.* : i mean yes, we had something going on.
jovina.* : but even though we're not together i still care.
jovina.* : i still hope you're doing well.
jovina.* : even if you've moved on with another girl and stuff.
jovina.* : i mean i loved you and now i wanna still love you guys as friends.
jovina.* : why do i have to lose both love and friendship?
-lousyboy- : call it bad luck, call it karma, i dont know seriously
-lousyboy- : the human mind is a mysterious thing
-lousyboy- : some people may act one way while other people can act differently
-lousyboy- : i feel for you, cause i know people who were like this to my friends
-lousyboy- : its really bad

Thank you my Kits. You've brought a whole new understanding to this whole situation. Thanks for the comfort (: