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this is really really random but i'm 5kgs heavier than i was before the worldcup ):

to you:
you know it's only a matter of time before i got tired of your ways. i tried to make you fire but you were only ice, and you didn't seem to wanna change. so then i looked at someone new, and he was looking back at me too, saw that i was hurt, knew just what to say, knew just how to push the pain away.

you know i need stability, and you know you can't give it to me.

though when i call him on the phone, i never feel butterflies, i know that i can trust, he'll always give me love, and i know mine will grow for him in time. he tells me that i'm beautiful, and i never ever hear that from you. he doesn't cause me pain, tears falling like the rain, and though i'm still in love with you.. you know i need stability.

it wasn't easy letting go, but i know that i have to think of the long run and say goodbye. and find someone who appreciates me even though, even though,

my sun may never rise the way it did with you. and he may never kiss me the way that you do. at least he makes me feel like a part of his life, at least he doesn't make me cry. i know i can call him mine.